Girl! who are you fooling?

If l ask you why you are still stuck in that relationship high chances are, you are going grind your teeth, bite your nails, mumble, stammer and eventually click the mute button. Personally you know that after all you have been through, love left you with nothing to fight for. You have perfect examples of what love can do to a good woman so stop fooling yourself in the name of that four letter word.

Who are you fooling sweetheart?

Why are you fooling yourself?

Why do you hook yourself around the person that intentionally hurt you?

Why are you letting the actions of that man to be reason you depend on sleeping tablets?

From midnight until morning you count every single second. The beauty of sleeping is like a childhood fantasy to you, a fairytale that every little girl dream of.

Is it the love you are afraid of letting go? You can still find it in yourself. Is it the engagement ring you are afraid of removing? It can never give you the pleasures of a healthy relationship. Is it the 5 years you dated him that you are afraid of blowing away? People get divorced after 30 years of marriage. So stop going in circles because all the questions that are lingering in your mind have answers.

When he didn’t tell you about his baby mama, you said men are not good with opening up. When he remained silent whilst his mother lashed at you, you said he is afraid of losing his only parent. When his side chick showed up at his apartment, you said men like chasing…l will let him be, he is still young. Now he told you to chose between him and your career, you are still on with that ancient statement, ‘l can’t lose him for anything’. Stop making excuses for him, you really know it’s time to go through that exit.

Babe, work up and smell the coffe. You have dreams to fight for, goals to achieve and a life to live. You can fool the world but you can never bribe that heartbroken heart of yours. You can fake a smile but you can never fake the misery in your eyes. You can play the happy fiancé all the time but you can’t escape the unpleasant realities shelved in your closet.

Stop pretending. You should be done with the drama by now. Don’t you see that you are hurting. Don’t you see that you are falling apart. Take a breather girl! That woman you are running away from, the one you are afraid of being in the same room with, the same woman you are too blind to recognize in the mirror, deserves all the happiness that your little ego or the pride of being in a relationship can never offer. Stop playing games with her and be real with her for a moment. She needs to be cherished!